I started looking at daycares today. Arghh. Suddenly, I just want to stay home and raise my babies myself. I know I'm being unreasonably picky, but still....I'm choosing a place for my children to spend their days, and it's agonizing. We currently have a shortage of qualified child care providers here in the Yukon, so not only am I looking to the perfect place, I'm also looking for any place that has an opening.
I know I'm doing the best thing. I want to go back to work, I love teaching. I think that being with other kids will be wonderful for Girl Terror, and Boy Terror needs to find his own way, apart from his sister. This decision to have both Hubby and I working was made with plenty of thought. But still, I'm dragging my feet. One place was too industrial. The director at one was too weird for my taste. I'm not sure I liked the chaos at a third (but really. A room full of kids, the end of the day, chaos should be happening!).
I took Girl Terror with me this afternoon, and I think a big part of my problem is the fact that she had no problem walking away from me. She played, explored, and never looked back to see what I was doing. She introduced herself to other little girls, and stayed away from that little boy who was trying to eat gravel. I kept watching and waiting, wondering if she would notice I wasn't right beside her. She never did.